this is just soo weird...
the way i'm growing to accept the fact, that i will vanish, and that no one will remember me in a few years, and that it's just okay...
i've always felt a freezing panic from the thought of disappearing. i wanted so desperately to leave a trace. to let people know that i've been here. so desperately.
this fear is now passing. everything is passing.
not that i'm indifferent now... i'm not. i feel like crying.
but i'm not panicing anymore. i'm all right with it.